epilogue.
hello you.
as i finish this, i give you whatever parts of us were left within me. with this, i give up the universe you showed me. all the skies. the stars. the nebulas.
the home.
everything that i called mine.
i have not read a sadder love story. maybe we are the embodiment of tragedy itself.
i didn't think this would be the case when i would give this to you. today, we are the farthest from each other. more than we ever estimated. (man am i bad at math)
i want you to know that i kept up my side of the vow. to never give up on you. to never leave. unless you didn't want me around anymore. i want you to know that i tried until my body gave up. i want you to know that i loved you long after you were gone. and wanted nothing to do with me.
it's been 6 months since we spoke to each other with love.
it's been 4 months since we spoke at all.
i'm sorry it wasn't easy towards the end. but then again, you knew being with me would be anything but easy :)
that's okay. i'm letting go like you asked me to.
slowly. gently. falling apart with every attempt.
I'll get there.
i hope that maybe you'll find someone who loves you in the ways i couldn't. someone who waits. someone who can be stronger during all your winters and all your storms.
someone who sits still in chairs.
someone who is nothing like me :)
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and me? i'll be out there in the world somewhere. writing. painting. learning.
one day, when you can breathe again, I'm sure you'll find me.
I hope that if we ever meet again,
we'll be nothing like we are now.
and most of all,
i hope you find yourself in the process. I hope you find peace. your own space. stability. all of it.
i hope you see all the goodness that i saw in you.
all the kindness.
all the love.
i hope one day you see yourself the way i saw you.
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to the brightest star in the sky,
for one last time :)
i love you nikku
to infinity and beyond.
from the moon.
h.
.~.
all yours:
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